Our Big Move........

This Saturday we will make our big move to our new house. I am so excited/nervous! Silly i know right? But we have waited so long for something to call our own i still just can't believe it is happening. All the work isn't done but as i have been hearing all the work will NEVER be done. DaCota, Riley, Morgan & Ella's room's are done. Ella still needs her new bedding it's so expensive. UGH!!! Our room and Kayden's room have not been touched yet. They both still need to be painted. I am unsure what i want to do in Kayden room or our room for that matter. But they are livable now so i will wait till i find something i like. My kitchen still needs paint. Both bathrooms are done. Rec room (kids hangout) is done also. Living room needs paint. Dining room half done needs new tile paint is done. It's all so much i am exhausted. Work all day at work then home to the house to work again all night. It will be much easier to work on it once we are in it little by little instead of dragging the babies in and out everyday without all there comforts of home. We are excited this will start a new chapter in our lives. Our OWN chapter and boy oh boy am i looking forward to it. We have an acre and there is no landscaping at all so its basically a blank pallet for us to do what we want. I am excited about that for sure. I love flowers and landscaping so that is exciting for me. I always wanted to plant a lilac tree under Ella's window. I wanted it for the smell. Daddy wanted it for the thorns. I had a lilac tree in my yard when i was growing up and remembered always picking them and putting them in small glasses of water the house always smelled so wonderful. She loves to pick flowers(weeds) for all the time. Her room is on the second floor now so not sure how that will work but i will still plant one. We met some of our neighbors and one has small kids like Ella & Kayden and the other has a 13 & 8 yr old so that works for the older kids. Hopefully they are decent neighbors. They are not right on top of us anyways we have a bit of land. I am just tickled pink about it all. I can't wait to have holidays at my house. I love family and love us all together and i finally get to do it in my house my way.It's the little things that make me happy. My kids having friends being able to come over and hang out, sleepovers! I can't wait to have everyone over to see the new place! This is truly a blessing for Brian & I & the kids. This has been a great year for us so far. I hope everyone else is having a great year also!

Because i have to............

I would much rather sleep in then get up at 4:00am. I would much rather snuggle with my husband a little longer then get up at 4:00am. I would much rather stay in bed when Ella crawls in MaMa can i sleep with you? Please!!!! I would much rather make my kids breakfast then pack their bag for the sitter at 4:00am. I would much rather watch all those annoying cartoons then be at work. I would much rather be home when the kids get home from school and make them a snack then be on a train on my way home from a very long day. My day starts early! I am a wife, a full time employee, a full time Mama. The first part of my day starts at 4am and ends about 4pm if i am lucky. The second part of my life starts at 4:05pm and usually ends no where around where it should. I know a lot of my friends this is their life also. It's hard! But we work because we have to. We have to contribute. Because we want to give our families the best we can. I am not sure most of the time how i juggle what i do. Everyday life is hard sometimes most times. Don't get me wrong i wouldn't trade it for anything! Well.........I can't say if i won some Massive amount of money life would be a little easier and i would be sleeping in. But it's hard to work full time and take care of your personal business 9-5 stuff while your at work. By the time i get home everything i need to take care of is closed! I am having a hard time! I am feeling very overwhelmed lately and i miss my kids. I want so much to stay home and play with them and be with them and love them. It's always so busy i feel like i never have ENOUGH time with them. That is one of the hardest feeling to deal with! That you don't have ENOUGH time with your kids. I want to be there i want to see every detail of everyday of every moment of their lives. But i can't and it's hurts. You don't know what that feeling is like unless you live it. And if you live it you know how bad it hurts! One of the hardest things for me is when Ella wakes up in the morning before i leave and says Mama please stay home with me today................PLEASE ugh that is absolutely HEART-WRENCHING for me. It brakes my heart to tell her No Bell MaMa has to go to work. But why??????? So Mama can buy you all those things you point out on TV you want. OH okay..... Heart braking i tell ya heart braking. But i do it because i have to.

My little Girl....

I absolutely love love love this song. It's by Jack Johnson! I love him can't wait to see him again.

"My Little Girl"

Hey little girl
You might not know this song
This is not the kind of song
That you can sing along to
Hey little girl
Maybe some day
At least that’s what all the good people will say

Hey little girl
Look what you’ve done
You’ve gone and stole my heart
And made it your own

You’ve gone and stole my heart
And made it your own

Hey little girl
Look what you’ve done
You’ve gone and stole my heart
And made it your own

Hey little girl
Black and white and right and wrong
Only live inside a song
That I will sing to you
You don’t ever have to feel lonely
You will never lose any tears
You don’t have to feel any sadness
When you look back on the years

How can I look you in the eyes
And tell you such big lies
The best I can do is try to show you
How to love with no fear
My little girl
You’ve gone and stole my heart
And made it your

You’ve stole my heart
And made it your

What's happening...............

We have been working non-stop at the new house. It's getting there. We have had a lot of help from friends and family with i am so thankful for. Me and my sister went to storage and emptied stuff out of there what a joke. It's so packed in there trying to get around was a chore. But we managed to get a van for and we laughed our butts off the whole time which was well worth it. I don't get to spend a lot of time with my sister so it was nice. DaCota's room is Valpo green, Ella's room is Tu-Tu pink how appropriate & green. Riley's room is orange. Morgan's is having pink but it's not painted yet. Kayden's room & our room is on first floor & hasn't been touched yet. I pick the color for my kitchen which has a coffee theme. It's being painted a Carmel color. My sister said it's the color of what may have come out of Kayden's diaper at one time but oh well! Our water softener is installed thanks to my brother-in-law George! YAY!!!!!!! What a life saver he was. Sunday didn't go as smooth. Riley came home from a sleep over which she informed me she feel down the stairs and hurt her fingers. Her pinky finger & ring finger looked a bit messed up. We left the minute she came home to run to kohls while my dad was painting ceilings so the kids wouldn't be in his way. With in an hour her finger swelled 50x worse. I took her to the hospital and after 3 hours she has a broken finger. Did i mention that she was at a sleep over sliding down stairs on sleeping bags? So when we get back to the new house i asked DaCota to put something together for me. He was mom do we need this box i was all no you can brake it down. Well i am in Ella's room painting and all of a sudden i hear DDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDD i run out the room to see DaCota and Morgan going down the stairs on the cardboard box. I am all I just spend 3 hours in a hospital with your sister for a broken finger for the same thing! UGH!!!! These kids. On top of it Ella & Kayden was to go down the stairs also on the box. ugh no! I have video i will post. Never a dull moment! So that is my update on the house! I will be glad when we can move in!